Peaceful Coexistence

*Warning…this is not a post to bash Ricky Retardo!  Please do not leave any comments about what a dick  he is.  If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t comment!!  Retardo, if you comment on this post, I will delete it.  If you want a forum, then I will post a reply that will come from you when you have the time to get it to me.*

I have never been lucky in love or marriage.  Just take a look at my track record, it is hardly stellar.  But, it is what it is.

I have been married to Ricky Retardo, or RR, for almost one year, and it sucks.  He is great to the kids and the kids love him.  That is not the issue.

I have been told in the past that I am impossible to please.  HE has told me that he can’t meet my expectations.   What are my expectations?  To be included in his life and to be a unit and make decisions together.  I don’t expect him to dance naked upside down while maintaining an erection and doing our taxes.  I do expect him to discuss important decisions with me before going off on his own and just making them.

You see, we have OUR life and he has HIS life.  I am not allowed in his life.  I have no contact with his children, his job, his co workers, his friends in DC.  He has bought a condo in DC that I have never seen and found out that he actually got it after he closed on it.  These things just aren’t right.

I share with him everything.  From family issues to kid issues to ex husband issues.  He is my go to guy.  I want to be his go to girl.  Are those expectations too high??  Maybe for some people, but I am not some people.

Financially, he is a diamond in the rough.  He supports me and my children, as the child support does not cover even 1/4 of their expenses.  He is also supporting his other kids in such a huge way, it is scary.  He is generous and kind when it comes to money.  But, I did not marry him for his money.

I married him for love.  My first husband I married because he was my mother’s perfect guy.  My second husband was a challenge to prove to myself that I could handle all kinds of adversity and my third husband was for love.

Is he gorgeous?  No, he’s cute.  Were the first two? Yes.  Is he stable financially?   Yes.  But so was the last one.  Is he fun? Absolutely.  In fact, I have never met anyone who is so open to just about anything.  Is he good to my kids? 100% yes.  He has wonderful qualities and then this very large bad one.

He says that in his previous marriage, and by the way, she did not train him well at all, and maybe I need to take this up with her, and I would but I am not allowed to go near her or her kids, because she doesn’t want me around, and he is too scared to stand up to her, he had what he called a “peaceful coexistence”.

I don’t quite know what that is, other than two people who just live in the same house but share nothing.

I don’t want that.  I refuse that.  I want peace, but I want to exist, not coexist.

I have a question for you all…how do you exist or do you just peacefully coexist??