Sadie Sadie Single Mom but Married Lady

For of those of you that have been reading about me, you know that I am on hubby #3. I don't have any shame about it. It is what it is. I was too young the first time, the second is the father of my kids and the third is the love of my life.

All that being said, I still view myself as a single mom. My hubby is bi-coastal. He has kids in the East and his company is in the East, so he is there for about 2 weeks every month...sometimes more and sometimes less.

The traveling works for us. Many friends and family ask me how I can stand it, but the truth is, if he were here all the time, we would probably kill each other. We have been together for 3 years and married for 3 months.

I have been a single parent for almost 4 years. My ex is not what I would call involved. He does take his visitation, but he is absent the rest of the time. It is me and them and them and me and has been that way for a very long time.

Whether hubby is home or not, I feel single when it comes to my kids. Hubby loves them and they love him, but I am Mommy. Mommy is who they go to when they want something, need something, have something, get something and say something. Mommy is who takes them to camp, play dates, parks, zoos, movies, swimming, dinner, shopping.

I can ask hubby to stay with the kids or take them to Birthday parties and take up slack for me, he does it willingly and with a smile, but it's the hard stuff. The discipline, the fighting, the whining that makes me feel like I am doing it alone.

I know that I am not the only married parent out there that feels this way, and I also know that some of you that feel this way are married to your kids fathers, but I still sometimes wonder about that dichotomy of married and single.

Just another curve ball that I have to figure out and just another outlet to let it out. Thank you all for allowing me this outlet to vent, complain, digress and talk.